No matter how much you bury fear and pain, and believe you outfoxed the energies, you will pay the price down the road.
Take it from a former world class repressionist. Life seemed OK. On the outside. But deep down, beneath my humorous veneer, I vibed pain and fear. I suppressed difficult trauma from childhood. Pressure cooker. After I began meditating and doing highly uncomfortable things to grow my business, you better believe I triggered these emotions. Suicidal thoughts arose. I became a rage monster. But I eventually became poised. Peace reigned.
I abused my body in the gym because suppressed fears influenced me to abuse my body. Of course I looked ripped, huge and muscular. But emotions motivating me came from a pained, grieving, fear-filled energy. Now I am about as skinny as a baby bird but feel peaceful, serene and calm. My pretzel-like, flexible Kriya yoga and yin yoga body reflects a predominant loving, peaceful vibe I maintain.
Unfortunately, most people suppress their emotions. But suppressed emotions eventually find an outlet.
A screaming man licked a pole outside of the apartment here in Brooklyn, NYC a few moments ago. He kissed the pole then licked the pole. I felt compassion for the man. He is obviously mentally ill. But he reminds you how suppressed emotions find an outlet eventually. People bury unspeakable fear and pain over decades. Everything seems OK on the surface. But buried fear and pain finds some horrific outlet.
Mental illness, physical illness, suicidal urges, alcoholism, drug addiction, sex addiction and food addiction are common effects of an emotional suppression cause. Lesser effects seem to be distracting yourself with a dead end job, mindless entertainment or vacant gossip to avoid facing your fears and pains.
I am no Buddha. But I largely faced, embraced, felt and released my deepest fears. Evidence is my life. I have circled the globe for 8 years as a pro blogger. People who live their dreams do the messy emotional work – clearing fears – that society skips for fear of facing their fears.
But suppressed fears find an outlet. Always.
Face your fears. Feel your fears. Be well. Feeling fear seems overwhelming but the downside becomes nightmarish. Observe the mental and physical illnesses spreading in the Western world. I love my USA but also know the mass suppression in the States has manifest as a litany of mental and health issues. Versus always seeking health in pills, potions and medicine, consider feeling your emotions. Consult Western medicine but study the emotional component of sickness, too. Of course, always speak to your doctor if you suffer through health issues. But consider meditating daily to begin unearthing long buried emotions.
Eventually, buried emotions find some devious outlet. You may as well face the feelings now and be happy – and at peace – versus facing nightmarish issues down the road.
You cannot get over what’s still in you.